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Thursday Therapy – Agitation

Agitation was the overriding theme of my session with Freud yesterday. I’m sure Freud would’ve realized I was agitated even if I hadn’t mentioned it to him. My body language was full of tells. I...

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Here We Are Again

Blah, blah, blah… Yadda, yadda, yadda… That’s all I hear these days when people speak. I can’t concentrate. I can barely keep myself functioning at a rudimentary level at work. I am really, really...

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So Many Dreams

J is on my mind so much lately that he has invaded my dreams on a regular basis, when I'm not dreaming about pythons endangering school children (that's a whole different story, not for today, maybe...

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Would You Visit Me in the Loony Bin?

Why does everything have to pile up on me at once? I have been feeling completely swamped by life lately. N is having problems at school. W is having health issues, again (still?), and spent time in...

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Help Me Be Less Self-Absorbed

To those of you who know me personally (either IRL or in cyberspace) and aren't just wandering by reading this randomly (unless you want to be included, in which case, go ahead), would you consider...

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Gone Again

J is gone again, maybe for good. I hadn't heard from him since are last get together other than a quick email exchange when I checked on his welfare after hearing about a murder at the prison where he...

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Wow...

I haven't posted since March of last year?!?  Really?!?  Wow... just wow... So much to say, no time to say it. Oh well, just know that I am alive and well (sort of) and hoping to eventually get back in...

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Just a Little Update

Until a few days ago, when I stopped my blog for the first time in a very long time, I didn’t realize that so much has happened that I haven’t gone on about here. Here are the highlights: Mission Trip...

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Might as Well Admit It

No matter how frustrating he can be, no matter what things he does that make me cringe, for some reason I just can't let W go. He infuriates me with his curmudgeonly ways.  Does he have to be gruff and...

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Not Good at the Game

(Note:  This post was a quickly written, stream of consciousness kind of thing.  Apologies for a lack of coherency, cohesion, and flow from one paragraph to the next.) I am so very not good at just...

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Sunday Stealing: Ask Me Meme

1:What was the last argument you had about?  Dinner2:How long is your longest relationship?  25 years3:What is something not many people know about you?  My passion for Bowling for Soup4:Two truths and...

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Sunday Stealing: Cupid's Questions Meme

Sunday Stealing 1.)Do you like Valentine's Day?  No 2.)Are you going to celebrate it? Not really 3.)Celebrate Valentine's Day with Friends or someone Special?  No 4.)Pink or red? Red 5.)Candy Hearts...

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Proper Way to Eat M&Ms

The only proper way to eat M&Ms (for me, as a borderline OCD type) is to separate them by color first, and then eat them one at a time in the following order (this is for standard M&M colors;...

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Lethargy, Black Holes, and Meh...

Blah, blah, blah... Life continues... Blah, blah, blah. I have neglected this blog because I've been posting on Facebook so much, so very, very much.  However, all my FB posting has ceased lately.  I...

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Held Hostage at the DMV

Poor N.  No he is not being held hostage.  His driver permit is.  He has passed the written exam.  He has paid his $20.  When the driver ed teacher went to pick up the student's permits, the DMV office...

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The Power of Writing and Other Things

Pretty sure my post on my depression last Wednesday had a beneficial effect on my mental health.  I know something did.  Whether it was that or something else I feel better (better being a relative...

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How to Serve Meals to the Picky

Meals bring a challenge to me because I have very strict rules about how things need to be served (also eaten, but that's another post). First off, I am a food separatist, i.e. I like my foods to not...

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Worry -- The Overriding Emotion

It doesn't matter what I do or how I approach things I worry.  I worry about whether I do too much... or too little.  I worry about whether I say too much... or too little.  I worry that bad things...

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Snow White and the Evil Witch

Let me introduce you to Snow White, a coworker.  I've not written about her before here.  I certainly can't write about her on fb since we are fb friends even though she can whine and complain about...

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Two More Days

I only have to hang on for two more days.  Just Thursday and Friday and then I am off for six weeks worth of self improvement, renewal, and recuperation from burnout. Right now I am hanging by a...

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History Repeats Itself

Want to know what my life is like today?  Refer back to My Snow White post from a couple of months ago.  Came back to work this week to find that although I feel have changed a bit to the better things...

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R.I.P. W

Just for those who maybe don't know me in real life or on Facebook, I thought I should post here that W died earlier this month. It did not come as a big surprise. It was sad in some ways but not sad...

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Why Am I Here?

Just stopping around to say, "Hey!" Life is weird. If you happen by, leave a comment. I could use a little reunion of the old gang.

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Sigh...

I leave here, but I always come back eventually.  This blog holds so much of who I was and who I still am in many ways. My depression, the black hole, has darned near swallowed me the last few months....

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I'm Late, I'm Late

I really, really want to post something here, but I have no time lately.  I'm always late, always behind, always trying to catch up. But I sooooooooooooo need to write and get some stuff out. Soon...

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